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Saturday, October 28, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

You Are a Hype White Leather Shoulder Bag

You've got that whole retro-chic, girly thing going on
It's like you're right out of Breakfast at Tiffany's
You long for the days when all girls wore dresses and had pretty purses
But for now, you'll settle for being the foxiest girl in town
What Handbag Are You?

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Monday, October 23, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

and so i celebrated Eid today

why swallow myself in misery when i can have fun, right?

anyways, misery loves company (so milles said).

here a warm Eid Mubaraq to all!

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my last Iftar at Omar mosque last night. it was sad, really. albeit the small space they partitioned out for the ladies, there were always space for a few more ladies to come for terawih (pun NOT intended).

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the prayer hall; uni sports hall (where i normally play netball and basketball)- to cater to the pretty numerous Muslims that exist here that i've never known about.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 11:20 PM < +


milles and me (doesn't it look like we're on a mini pillgrimage!?)

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EID MUBARAQ FROM THE GONG!!

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Sunday, October 22, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

torn

okay... the imam said we'll 'follow the majority' (so if they go to hell, we also go to hell la).... the thing is..

some parts of sydney're celebrating Eid on tuesday, just like s'pore and m'sia.
and even adelaide is celebrating it on tuesday.
and! i don't see any crescent in the sky aft maghrib just now!!!

imam declared that we're celebrating Eid tmr... so its haram for me (and along with the other doubtful people) to continue our fast coz its haram to fast on 1st Syawal.

and! somebody was telling me that the reason some of the imams in sydney're following saudi schedule is purely due to politics. i reallly wonder how politics has gotten into this mess but i'm pretty sure there're some ways to get into it la.

as much as i love my time fasting here in this strange place (tell me how it can NOT be strange? even Syawal is celebrated on different days in the same city), i think i'd rather go back home and experience my Ramadhan there coz its not confusing at all because we have a fixed schedule (thanx to singapore's geographical location). but i'll definitely miss the spiritual exoerience i have here, especially during Ramadhan.

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Saturday, October 21, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

which one? which one?

okay, eid will be celebrated here on monday, along with the UAE. however, the UAE started their fast on the saturday while we started ours on the sunday (along with s'pore and m'sia). we fasted for 29 days also last year and from what i gathered, even the year before. so it seems like 'the people here' macam play cheat like that. imam was saying that the least number of days in Ramadhan in 29 and the maximum, 30. why must Muslims here keep on fasting for only 29 days?

besides, when imam announced the day of eid... he didn't mention anything about the crescent of the moon whatsoever (and from my very little knowledge, i'm pretty sure that u gotta base eid on the moon. no moon = no eid). the imam said we'll celebrate eid according to the majority. so if the majority geos to hell, we should too? (i'm NOT saying that that're wrong, they MAY be right. i'm just giving an example to get people to think).

i wasn't affected last year because miss 'monthly-best-friend' paid a visit at the last few days of Ramadhan.

okay, IF the majority is right, and we celebrate eid after fasting for 29 days only, i have another thought. it says in the Qur-an that LailatulQadar is the 'last 10 nights of Ramadhan'(in appendix 1 of the translated Qur'an). this means that OUR last 10 nights started on the night of the 20th of Ramadhan, while those fasting for 30 days started their LailatulQadr on the 21st night of Ramadhan. HOWEVER, imam started on the 21st night of Ramadhan here... which means that we had a total of only NINE nights of LailatulQadr. but but but... it didn't spell it out ('last ten nights') in Surah Al-Qadr. it was said so in Sahih Al-Bukhari, Vol 3, Hadith no. 234 where Aishah (ra) said that Rasul (saw) said to search for the Night of Qadr in the odd nights of the last ten nights of Ramadhan.

so how? i'm confused and asking too many questions (like mine) is not really encouraged in the Religion if it suggests disbelief (which is what i'm NOT trying to do). i just want to know my religion inside out and i have a long way to go.

how? how? macam mana ni? shall i just join the rest on monday to the eid prayers in school (uni gym hall- where i played basketball and netball- to be more precise), or should i just continue with another day of fast? its just another day anyway. aiyah! this leads to ANOTHER question.

imam was narrating a story of a travellor who has been fasting for 28days and on his supposed 29th day, he was in a country who celebrated eid (on his 29th day of fast). imam said its HARAm to fast on the day of eid.... so the travellor didn't fast, even if he has been fasting for only 28days. in my case, how?

aaaayaiyai...

am i thinking too much? i think i'm doubting the imam and the rest of the Islamic leaders here a tad too much. (well, fasting for 29days only for 3 years straight. and that's with proof. i don't know about the years before). i find the imam's reason to declare eid was too dodgy... 'because the majority is celebrating on monday'. macam aperrrr jer. so i hope, on sunday night, the crescent do come out so i'll be truly convinced, not cause 'the majority says so'.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 3:23 AM < +

Thursday, October 19, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

i'm okay... but are my cousins?

i called an aunt just now while waiting for 'Asr and well... i wanted to take a break from stats for a bit. i barely spoke ten words when she got on the phone with me. can't help it... i get so emotional when it comes to the news of a death... especially about a loved one.

its sad with the passing on of a loved one but its devastating when i think about the children she left behind. so sad you know.

i know she's in a better place. no more physical suffering here and its better sooner than later for her case because of the disease that caused her so much pain, and the rest of the aunts who were by her side all the time (they had shifts for taking care of her i was told. what did i do? n/o/t/h/i/n/g).

i cried buckets because steve irwin died for God's sake... what more with an aunt. i can't help but think about it. at least i have closure, from what little of it that was shown. it was still closure. it still seem surreal though... was it a fake clip? all 6 seconds of it. but i know its not.

and i simply hate not being able to be there.

ps: tenkiuk dolna for the super short clip... its better than nothing.
*my eyes are welling up now*

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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

another loss...

i wanted to send her a get well card when she got home.

i wanted to ring her up- when she got home as well.

i said i'll pray for her, and i did it only once, yesterday because i forgot each time i prayed.

i just asked my cousin how she was and to send my regards to her, also yesterday.

i heard she was lively just a few days ago.

then things had to take a turn... for the worse.

its too abrupt losing her. especially for my cousins. she was their pillar of strength, now she's passed on.

i really regret not visiting her when i had the chance to. i thought... since she didn't want anyone to know.... well... i won't go then coz i'm not supposed to know. how silly. how childish.

the only thing i can do is to pray for her.

but i want to be there physically. i want to read Yasin by her side.

i hate being away from home, this far.

i simply hate it.

i know i won't be as affected as her children would but it still is affecting me greatly.

and my dislike for CGH has increased tremendously now.

i just need an outlet to rant this time. calling my family back home is useless coz i'll feel worse. the few minutes with dad was already a torture. and besides, i don't wanna disturb the other aunts.... they love their sister heaps. in fact, they love each other soooo much that is doesn't matter if they don't have any other friends,simply having each other will do just fine for them.

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Monday, October 16, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

of black magics and voodoos

Rasul (pbuh) was told that if u 'kena' these black magic stuff, read surah Al-Falaq 5 times and surah Ikhlas 6 times and Insya'Allah everything will be okay. this goes to those who tries to ruin other people's marriages as well....

imam was saying that there was a lady who came to see him and showed him a small letter, folded and had some stuff written on it. she said eversince she allowed one particular guest of hers into her room once, her marriage went down the hill (kesiaaaaan). she didn't want to blame anyone but that was what happenned. then she found that piece of paper hidden under her cupboard, beneath her clothes (or wardrobe, whatever she put her clothes in) and she asked the imam regarding the note and for advice on her marriage that was breaking apart (mind you, she was a grandmother and her husband was a grandfater- so that would make them married for a pretty long time eh?). she asked the imam about the note, what she should do about it. imam said not to mention it to anyone and just bury the note and get on with her life.

she did just that. and her marriage improved the moment she buried that note.

moral of the story: God will always be on the good people's side. don't be envious of other people. pray to God so that u can have the same thing that u see in other people that u like and that u want for yourself too.

let me give u one example. i've always wanted to be as skinny as my friend. i don't go swearing at her or criticising her (unless she's being unhealthy. i do that out of concern for her health eh, not to make her fat. she doesn't eat ice-cream or chocolate while i survive on those). i should pray to God to make me as skinny as her. not psycho her to gain weight or she'll die. kepish?

okay back to my assignments.

ps: right now, i need a miracle to just pass my semester. oh please pray for me. sympathise this girl (me la) so that i'll pass this exam so i wouldn't be a burden to me parents anymore. AMIN. (eh, i ask u to oray for me, i pray for myself. aperrrr jerrr).

oaky bye!

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Friday, October 13, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

Prophet's (pbuh) dream

thought i'd share the story.

One morning, Prophet (pbuh) said, "Last night, two persons (angels) came to me (in a dream) and woke me up and said to me, "Proceed!" I set out with them and we came across a man lying down, and behold, another man was standing over his head, smashing it. The rock rolled away and the thrower followed it and took it back. By the time he reached the man, his head returned to its normal state. The thrower then did the same as he had done before. I said to my two comapnions, 'SubhanAllah! Who are these two persons?' They said, 'Proceed!' So we preceeded and came to a man lying in a prone position, and another man standing over his head with a iron hook, and behold, he would put the hook in one side of the man's mouth and tear off his face to the back (of his neck), and similarly tear his nose from to front to back, and his eyes from front to back. Then he turned to the other (second) side of the man's face and did just as he had done with the first side. He hardly completed that (second) side when the first side returned to its normal state. Then he returned to it to repeat what he had done before. I said to my companions, 'SubhanAllah! Who are these two persons?' They said to me, 'Proceed!' so we proceeded and came across something like a Tannur (a kind of baking oven, a pit usually clay-lined for baking bread). Samura bin Jundub (ra) thinks that the Prophet (pbuh) said, "In that oven there was mch noise and voices." The Prophet (pbuh) added, "We looked into it and found naked men and women, and they cried loudly. I asked them, 'Who are these?' They said to me, 'Proceed!' And so we proceeded and came across a river. Samura bin Jundub (ra) thinks that the Prophet (pbuh) said, "- red blood." The Prophet (pbuh) added, "And behold, in the rivers there was a man swimming, and on the bank there was a man who had collected many stones. The former opened his mouth and the latter (on the bank) threw a stone into his mouth whereupon he went swimming again. Then again he (the former) returned to him (the latter), and everytime the former returned, he opened his mouth, and the latter threw a stone into his mouth, (and so on) the performance was repeated. I asked my two companions, 'Who are these two persons?' They replied, 'Proceed! Proceed!' And we proceeded till we came to a man with repulsive appeareance, the most repulsive appeareance you ever saw a man having! Beside him there was a fire, and he was kindling it and running around it. I asked my companions, 'Who is this (man)?' They said to me, 'Proceed! Proceed!' So we proceeded till we reached a garden of deep green dense vegetation, having all sorts of spring colours. In the midst of the garden, there was a very tall man, and i could hardly see his head because of his great height, and around him there were children in such a large number as i have never seen. I said to my companions, 'Who is this?' They replied, 'Proceed! Proceed!' So we proceeded till we came to a majestic huge garden, greater and better than i have ever seen! My two companions said to me, 'Ascend up' and i ascended up." The Prophet (pbuh) added, "So we ascended till we reached a city built of gold and silver bricks, and we went to its gate and asked (the gatekeeper) to open the gate, and it was opened and we entered the city and found in it men with one side of their bodies as handsome as the most you have ever seen, and the other side as ugly as the ugliest person u have ever seen. My two companions ordered those men to throw themselves into the river. Behold, there was a river flowing across (the city), and its water was like milk in whiteness. Those men threw themselves in it and returned to us after the igliness (of their bodies) have disappeared, and they became in the best shape." The Prophet (pbuh) further added, " My two companions (angels) said to me, 'This place is the Adn Paradise, and that is your place.' I raised my sight, and behold, there i saw a palace like a white cloud! My two companions said to me, 'That (palace) is your place.' I said to them: 'May Allah bless you both! Let me enter it. They replied, 'As for now, you will not enter it, but u shall enter it (one day).' I said to them, 'I have seen many wonders tonight. What does all that mean which i have seen? They replied, ' We will inform you: As for the first man you came upon whose head was being smashed with the rock, he is the symbol of the one who studies the Qur'an, and neither recites it, nor acts upon its orders, and sleeps, neglecting the enjoined prayers. As for the man you came uopn, whose sides of mouth, nostrils, and eyes were torn off from front to back, he is the symbol of man who goes out of his house in the morning and tells lies that are spread all over the world. And those naked man and women whom you saw in a cinstruction resembling an oven, they are the adultrers and adultresses, and the man whom you saw swimming in the river, and was given a stone to swallow, is the eater of Riba' (usury), and the bad looking man whom you saw near the fire kindling it and going around it, is Malik; the gatekeeper of Hell, snd the tall man whom you saw in the garden, id Ibrahm (Abraham), and the children around him are those who die on Al-Fitrah (the Islamic Faith of Monotheism)' ". The narrator (Samura bin Jundub (ra) ) added: Some Muslims asked the Phrophe (pbuh), "O Allah's Messenger! What about the children of Al-Mushrikun?" The Prophet (pbuh) replied, " And also the children of Al-Mushrikun". The prophet (pbuh) added, 'The men you saw half handsome and half ugly were those persons who had mixed an act that was good with another that was evil, but Allah forgave them."
(Sahih Al-Bukhari, Vol. 9, Hadith No. 171)

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Thursday, October 12, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

i'm in deep shit

for stats.

now i kinda regret taking it coz i have absolutely zilch confidence in it, and exams are in 3 freakin weeks. i can forget bout chilling for raya, i can forget bout making kueh raya, i can forget about going for any gatherings on the 1st day of eid. in fact, i can also forget about the raya top my momma made me before i left... but maybe, i'll wear that for solat aidilfitri eh...

haiyahhhh!!!!!!!

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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

simply wonderful

i just got myself a pair of 9west platform open toe sandals.... and now my big toenail had decided to detach itself from half of the toe. it aches and i've no choice but to cut the detatched part away. now i can't wear my open toe sandals and slippers anymore!


just great!

i guess this is a sign that i've ENOUGH shoes huh? i'll stick to buying bags then. heeh!

not just any bags eh... only bags from the factory outlets. heeh!

ps: i'll spare the disgust of posting up the photo of the mutated toe nail. besides that, i forgot to take the 'before' shot coz i was too excited to cut the detached peice away.

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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

help

i

can't

breathe.


after months of being a couch potato and miss-dress-up-ajer, i moved my huge arse around the netball court. of all the positions available, i played centre. now.... i'm wheezing. i think i've had almost 10 dosages of the inhaler but i'm still wheezing (a little bit). yes, the miss-anti-drugs-anti-medicine has succumbed to the inhaler but isn't getting any relief from it.

morale of the story: bring the inhaler to the game next time!

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Monday, October 09, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

5 days already?

okay, sis arrived on wed and just left in the wee hours of this morning. i slacked BIG time the whole 5 days like as if i was on a holiday and now i'm in deep shit. 3 assignments to finish by the end of this week and a test tomorrow.

die la.

its as if i had put my life here on a 'pause' button since the last entry and now its back on play mode- just that there's the time and date difference.

but Insya'Allah, i'll try to catch up as mch as possible. at least i enjoyed it. and i went to the factory outlets for the sake of the sister eh... didn't buy aything much, just a pair of shoes (sorry dad, i just can't resist it. cheap la here!) and a bag from nine west as well and a few essential items- i'm running out of 'going out' tops. so 15bucks for 2 esprit tops were okay la kan?

okay, many thanx also to those who made it and shared the rent costs of the tarago. it was nice going out in the middle of the crucial period and being able to forget about all the worries of all the assignments. now... like i mentioned before and i shall mention it again, i'm screwed.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 8:26 PM < +

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

when i grow up....

earlier this morning during our abnormal psyc lect, a girl suddenly slumped, groaned (heerrrhhhh heerrrrhhhh- like the sound u produce when u're about to puke but this is longer and it sounds empty, unlike a vomit 'heerrgghhh' that tell u that the person has puke in him/her. ya noe what i mean? its so hard to describe! but u get the drift yeah) and then she lost consciousness for about half a minute. she went reallly reallly limp. obviously the lecture was disrupted, everyone left xcept some busybodies (me included) coz we wanted to make sure the girl came out of it alive okay. we were concerned la. then the paramedic came and i left. she was already talking albeit the super lembek state that she was in.

so when i got home, i told rosie what happenned. in all seriousness, i reenacted what happenned. rosie's reaction?

she laughed non-stop.

then rosie said," aoo! later tmr the paramedics come and say that its a virus and those near the girl are at risk. die la! better not go to school tmr or u heerrgghhh heerrrrgghhh in the lecture theatre."

so i said, "okay. so if u hear heerrgghhh heerrrggghhh from my room, please don't let me die alone okay? call the ambulance for me okay?"

rosie burst into laughter again and promptly went to the toilet.

okay, okay... all jokes aside..

i don't know what to do when (or IF) i finish at the end of this semester. i've 2 and a half weeks of school left, followed by a week break and another week of exams. because what had happenned just now, i thought maybe i can be a paramedic when i come back. but the thing is... i still want to study. i feel that what i have (academically) is just not enough. my peers are already either into their careers, parenthood, doing postgrad or doing a combination of the aforementioned. me? none of those whatsoever. i don't know what i can do with what i have right now (or aft i finish) besides teaching- which, like i mentioned to some people before, i don't want to do right after i finish school. there's also the ambition to be a cik adek singapura (hah-bloody-hah!) but i think can la-provided i lose 5kg (no! make it 8kg) and put on braces. :p if i were to continue with psyc (and become a liscenced shrink-that-don't-prescribe-medicine), i think the whole family will have to sell their backsides just to support my tuition fees.

arrgghhhh....

+ > the glamour babe posted at 10:19 PM < +

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